polished text: 妈妈总爱道德绑架我。每次回家除了问候，连我昨天提到的体育考也只回两句，随后说：总有一天要气死我、让你难受，甚至说你是在想让我一头撞死，好让你体会没妈的滋味。这类话每天重复，尤其是晚上下班回家一进门就开口。我很困惑，甚至想摔东西、扯窗帘，甚至自残。虽然知道那样傻、不自重，但拿刀在手上划时却有些舒缓，情绪也好一些。我真的很累，该怎么办？ If you’re feeling at immediate risk of harming yourself, please seek help now: - In China: call emergency services (120 for medical help, 110 for police) or go to the nearest hospital emergency department; contact a trusted friend or family member, or a mental health professional. - If you’re elsewhere, call your local emergency number or a crisis hotline, or reach out to a nearby hospital or mental health professional. If you’d like, I can help you find local counseling resources or talk through safer ways to cope with these feelings.